Tuesday, June 8, 2010 at 11:00pm
This morning I woke up at 3 am my time, that was OK because I fell asleep around 9pm, but what is there to do at 3am, so i plugged in my mp3 player and started to listen to 3 CD's that Marie had made for me about a year ago, well it didn't take long before I was crying again, it's funny how some of the smallest things can mean so much to you and I am not even on hormones.
today was a big day cause I was able to get out of bed after Dr Suporn checked me out, I did have to wait until 10am for the nurses to help me and make sure I didn't pass out after laying down for 5 days and with their help took my first shower and the first look at myself in the mirror, sure looks different but it is so swollen right now if I was to wear the wrong pants or whatever it would be the biggest Camel toe you had ever seen.
The IV was removed this morning, the connection is still there just in case so now I only have the one hose coming out of me, the drain was removed yesterday, the catheter gets removed the last day i think then you have to pee on your own or it gets put back in and have to walk around the hotel like that so the last day I am going to drink all the water I can.
After the shower I thought I was going to have to go back to bed but the nurse said i could go next door and visit with my friend Camila, we had only met the day she checked into the hospital, I had never met her before only on email, she had her operation the day before me, Camila is so beautiful in mind and body, I am looking forward to recovering with her.
I am back in my room now to rest then maybe a little walk about later.
One thing about the drugs, they don't coat them to make them taste good, they are nasty.
I took pictures but I am not going to show you.
Susan
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Checked into the Hospital
Thursday, June 3, 2010 at 4:43am
The day went fast, first I had breakfast with the girls then we went out shopping, it's hard to find a 220 volt hair dryer at home, the other reason I had to go out today was that I wanted to see where all the stores were at while I can still walk around easy, anyway that made a lot of the day go by fast.
At around 2:30 I went over to the clinic to fill out paper work and sign forms, after which I had my consultation with Dr Suporn, then to the hospital. Oh they gave me my dilators too, I am going to be seeing a lot of them soon.
So I was checked in to the hospital and all this is done for you, all I had to do was sit there and sign papers. then up to my room 903, I have been here for 2 hours now and had my blood pressure checked 3 times already. The psychiatrist came in and talked to me for the second letter, you get this paper and on one side I had to draw a women from head to toe, on the other side I had to draw a house with trees and people, then he asks you to explain your drawings to him, no I don't under stand but I passed and that's all that matters.
The anesthesiologist just came in and checked me out and explained a flew things.
Well tonight I think I get shaved, not like there is much there anyway and then the enema's, who's having all the fun now, the party starts around 9pm.
Surgery is at 8:30am and that's all you are going to hear from me for a while until I know which way is up again.
I am really not sure if I believe that I am really here, I know that I worked hard to get here, once I got started there was not much that could have stopped me, I have never known anything to be as right as this was in me.
I will try to write more later if I have time before I cross over to the other side.
The day went fast, first I had breakfast with the girls then we went out shopping, it's hard to find a 220 volt hair dryer at home, the other reason I had to go out today was that I wanted to see where all the stores were at while I can still walk around easy, anyway that made a lot of the day go by fast.
At around 2:30 I went over to the clinic to fill out paper work and sign forms, after which I had my consultation with Dr Suporn, then to the hospital. Oh they gave me my dilators too, I am going to be seeing a lot of them soon.
So I was checked in to the hospital and all this is done for you, all I had to do was sit there and sign papers. then up to my room 903, I have been here for 2 hours now and had my blood pressure checked 3 times already. The psychiatrist came in and talked to me for the second letter, you get this paper and on one side I had to draw a women from head to toe, on the other side I had to draw a house with trees and people, then he asks you to explain your drawings to him, no I don't under stand but I passed and that's all that matters.
The anesthesiologist just came in and checked me out and explained a flew things.
Well tonight I think I get shaved, not like there is much there anyway and then the enema's, who's having all the fun now, the party starts around 9pm.
Surgery is at 8:30am and that's all you are going to hear from me for a while until I know which way is up again.
I am really not sure if I believe that I am really here, I know that I worked hard to get here, once I got started there was not much that could have stopped me, I have never known anything to be as right as this was in me.
I will try to write more later if I have time before I cross over to the other side.
This is the start of a new set of notes from Thailand
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 at 4:27pm
One day to go, I knew I would be able to say that one day but it seemed like forever getting here.
To day I have to get cleaned up, then breakfast with the girls, after that going out to get money changed and pick up some things I need, also to see where things are at with Jerrilynn.
At noon I have to meet the van which will take me to the hospital to be admitted I guess then later I have to go back to the clinic to see Dr Suporn then back to the hospital for a week.
Tonight maybe my last post for 2 or 3 days, talk to you later. Susan
One day to go, I knew I would be able to say that one day but it seemed like forever getting here.
To day I have to get cleaned up, then breakfast with the girls, after that going out to get money changed and pick up some things I need, also to see where things are at with Jerrilynn.
At noon I have to meet the van which will take me to the hospital to be admitted I guess then later I have to go back to the clinic to see Dr Suporn then back to the hospital for a week.
Tonight maybe my last post for 2 or 3 days, talk to you later. Susan
Monday, July 26, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
The Time is coming
I have 30 days until surgery, it's been a long time coming but it's almost here, people ask me if i am excited, I don't really think I am because I have been thinking about this for so long, it's more that I am ready, it's time. I do seem to be stressing out a bit though but that is because of all the things I have to plan and just hoping that I make it there and on time. The other thing is that all my bills have come this month and I am juggling the money.
Electrolysis is going good, I have had four mega sessions so far this year with another one the week before I leave, this is why I took out the line of credit so I would have the money to get other things done besides the surgery, my face is looking a lot better and it takes less time now to clear my face which is also good on the pocket book, the last time in it took about 1 1/2 days of two people working on me to clear the face.
Work is going along with no problems, it's just routine now, everybody seems to be used to me which takes some of the fun out of it.
The rest of my life is going along just like it should, I do every thing that a normal person does and that surprises me all the time, that I am able to live my life like this, I sometimes I can't believe that I am doing this and that tells me all the time that this is right for me, this is how I was supposed to be.
I did get some help from uncle Sam in the form of a nice tax return, I have plans for that, not going to say what those plans are right now, got to have some surprises.
Well that be all for now.
Susan
Electrolysis is going good, I have had four mega sessions so far this year with another one the week before I leave, this is why I took out the line of credit so I would have the money to get other things done besides the surgery, my face is looking a lot better and it takes less time now to clear my face which is also good on the pocket book, the last time in it took about 1 1/2 days of two people working on me to clear the face.
Work is going along with no problems, it's just routine now, everybody seems to be used to me which takes some of the fun out of it.
The rest of my life is going along just like it should, I do every thing that a normal person does and that surprises me all the time, that I am able to live my life like this, I sometimes I can't believe that I am doing this and that tells me all the time that this is right for me, this is how I was supposed to be.
I did get some help from uncle Sam in the form of a nice tax return, I have plans for that, not going to say what those plans are right now, got to have some surprises.
Well that be all for now.
Susan
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tranny
The last time I came back from Phoenix from having electrolysis I had a little incident at the Safeway parking lot here in Havasu. Well when I come home I am usually not looking too good, I have my work hair on and no makeup because it's not good to put it on when your face is all torn up, but other than that I was dressed nice.
I came out of the store with my shopping cart, walked over to my car and this small white pickup truck had parked on the right side of me, there was two young guys in the front and another two in the bed of the truck, well I unloaded my bags into the trunk, then I pushed the cart over to the shopping cart area and that's when I heard something about "Tranny" I don't remember what all they said but it wasn't anything too bad, I got in my car and looked over at one of the guys in the bed of the truck, He gave me the universal single to show him my tits, well I just shuck my head and smiled, he smiled back and I was gone.
For me this is the first time I have been called Tranny out in pubic, it did not bother me at all, in fact I kind of liked it, maybe because they were paying me attention, not sure, I think it's all in the attitude and the way you handle things, I knew I was not looking too good that day but I had to go shopping so I could eat at work the next day or I would have put it off until I could look better.
I came out of the store with my shopping cart, walked over to my car and this small white pickup truck had parked on the right side of me, there was two young guys in the front and another two in the bed of the truck, well I unloaded my bags into the trunk, then I pushed the cart over to the shopping cart area and that's when I heard something about "Tranny" I don't remember what all they said but it wasn't anything too bad, I got in my car and looked over at one of the guys in the bed of the truck, He gave me the universal single to show him my tits, well I just shuck my head and smiled, he smiled back and I was gone.
For me this is the first time I have been called Tranny out in pubic, it did not bother me at all, in fact I kind of liked it, maybe because they were paying me attention, not sure, I think it's all in the attitude and the way you handle things, I knew I was not looking too good that day but I had to go shopping so I could eat at work the next day or I would have put it off until I could look better.
Monday, April 5, 2010
One less month to live
It may seem like I have a negative attitude but not really, quite a flew years ago I was told to not wish time would go by so fast, like I wish this day would end so I can go home, well that has stayed with me for a long time so to not wish my life away I say one less day to live.
Transition is now at 13 months, hormones twelve months, another month has just gone by petty fast, the first three weeks of March were very busy with the last week being slow, I did not want to go out because I was growing out my facial hair for electrolysis last week, another thirty one hours total time.
Most everything is going good, the only bad thing is that I got my first death threat, it was relayed to me by a friend that wanted to warn me, this guy told her that I was going to get shot in the head when a guy goes down on me and finds something between my legs that doesn't belong there, well that's not going to happen with me because I am not that kind of girl, nobody is going down on me until after I have healed from my surgery, then maybe I will be that kind of girl.
I will be more careful though.
Notable things I did last month.
My friend Billie came to play with me one day, we went out for lunch, took pictures and went to taco dinner at Marie's, very nice day.
Went to Phoenix for electrolysis and got another new hair piece.
Marie had a special dinner for an out of town friend, I will just say that turned out to be a very special night.
Did my tax's, went to a spaghetti dinner at the fire station with two of my friends and I went for a BA consult, it was a very good month so I did not waist one day of my life.
Today I have sixty one days until surgery, fifty six days until I leave, not like I am counting the days but is is something I have to keep track of or else I will not be ready to go, all my plans are going good so far, I have to go two more times to Phoenix for electrolysis and a flew other minor things I need to do other than that my schedule is petty much open, so far, I am putting out a lot of money right now for electrolysis so that is one reason I will not be doing too much so hopefully that will give me more time to work on that bikini body for summer.
T-Girls Rule Susan
Transition is now at 13 months, hormones twelve months, another month has just gone by petty fast, the first three weeks of March were very busy with the last week being slow, I did not want to go out because I was growing out my facial hair for electrolysis last week, another thirty one hours total time.
Most everything is going good, the only bad thing is that I got my first death threat, it was relayed to me by a friend that wanted to warn me, this guy told her that I was going to get shot in the head when a guy goes down on me and finds something between my legs that doesn't belong there, well that's not going to happen with me because I am not that kind of girl, nobody is going down on me until after I have healed from my surgery, then maybe I will be that kind of girl.
I will be more careful though.
Notable things I did last month.
My friend Billie came to play with me one day, we went out for lunch, took pictures and went to taco dinner at Marie's, very nice day.
Went to Phoenix for electrolysis and got another new hair piece.
Marie had a special dinner for an out of town friend, I will just say that turned out to be a very special night.
Did my tax's, went to a spaghetti dinner at the fire station with two of my friends and I went for a BA consult, it was a very good month so I did not waist one day of my life.
Today I have sixty one days until surgery, fifty six days until I leave, not like I am counting the days but is is something I have to keep track of or else I will not be ready to go, all my plans are going good so far, I have to go two more times to Phoenix for electrolysis and a flew other minor things I need to do other than that my schedule is petty much open, so far, I am putting out a lot of money right now for electrolysis so that is one reason I will not be doing too much so hopefully that will give me more time to work on that bikini body for summer.
T-Girls Rule Susan
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