There's a reason for everything.

There has to be a reason for everything in life or that's maybe what I should believe, it makes things easier if I believe that way.
So it seems for me that my derby days are done, I have been fighting against this for 2 1/2 years but not going to fight it anymore, I was getting upset because I could not play as much as I wanted and on facebook it seemed that all my derby friends were playing all the time, you can't get good at something if you don't get to practice and I wasn't, nobody will let you play on there teams if you can't make it to practice and with the closest team 2 1/2 hours away there is no way I could  do that, can't move because I am too old  to transfer, not that I am giving up, I have $1000 in derby gear that I have to make use of somehow, should have known when I bought the new skates, oh well.
So the reason I have come up with is that I have to continue on the path I started 2 years ago, that is finish the house and sell, quit work and find the sail boat that I have always wanted.