WHY

why have I not been blogging much lately, well there is not much to blog about, dressing is an every day thing now so not a big deal, hormone changes are so slow that there is not much to write about, work has not been a problem, there is one thing but I will write about that later.

Why I have not been going out more, that's simple, no money honey, I am saving up for the big operation and electrolysis so not much left to play with, it's hard, I want to buy so much, I don't have winter clothing and I want to go places and do things but it's just going to have to wait for a year or two.

Why am I having a problem finding a friend to hang out with, is it because I live in BFE, is it because I don't go out much, I do go out more now than ever before. I have never been able to meet people on line, I am not a very good writer, never have been and when you can't write something witty people don't seem to be interested in you.

Why is it I feel like I did in high school, the emotions I have been having in the last flew months are tearing me up, things friends say or don't say, things friends do and don't do, I am really sensitive to every thing and it's not some thing they are doing wrong although it would be nice if they could be a little more sensitive to me until I learn how to handle this.

Why do I cry myself to sleep some nights, for things I can't have, other than that I can't talk about it here. there are somethings you can't blog about.

I thought I had more whys but I guess not, It may seem that I am having problems but I am OK, this has been the best year in a very long time for me and I hope it will get better, I changed the date of my surgery from July to June, so in six months and one week I will be leaving for Thailand.
I am happy with my breasts, I can actually fill out some of my tops now, I never thought I would like them so much, they are wonderful.
See things are Great.

OK I am done for now talk to you later.
Love Susan

Union

well I went to the union meeting tonight, it sure would have been nice if somebody had told me it was canceled, they are going to hear about this for the next six months.
So I went shopping, I was in walmart and ran into one of the guys wife's,I don't think she recognized me at first, but we just started talking about shopping and it was like two women talking, how much better could it be.
I am still shopping for a new camera so I can put pictures up again, of course the one I wanted was out of stock, oh well I will just have to go shopping again later.
Susan

TS STUFF

I know the day is not over but it's been a good day, first I went for another 2 hours of electrolysis, then to fill out paper work at Lakeview Family Dental, after that I went to the county court, then to Staples, printer ran out of ink again and the last stop at food city, It's funny but when I write it it doesn't seem like much but it took five hours to do all that.
I also ran into one of the guys from work, he didnt say any thing about me being dressed, maybe he was too shocked.

shopping #2

I forgot the other day when I was in the second hand store, a women came out of the dressing room and asked me if her top looked good, she was trying to buy something other than a tank top, I just asked her if she liked it and just to wear what she likes, I did tell her that it looked nice to me, I was a little surprised that a women would ask me a fashion question like that, maybe something else I have to get used to. Susan