Shock and Disbelief

Last Friday night the Lieutenant on my shift at the fire department committed suicide at home, I can't tell you why but the reasons would have made me contemplate it if it had been me, It was petty bad. I had known him for maybe 4 years, I didn't hang out with him off work as I don't hang out with anybody from work, so I really did not know him on a personal basis even though we live together for 48 hours a shift we don't get real personal. It really didn't bother me that much, I have always been cold that way, I get more upset when watching a movie or something, I thought that the hormones would change the way I feel but I feel no different, I am shocked and still in disbelief, I only worked with him 3 days before, there was no indications that anything like this was on his mind just such a waste, I don't know what else to say.

Susan