Monday, June 15, 2009
Thinking like a women
I have asked people before if these hormones would ever make me feel like I was a women, then I was thinking the other day who knows how a women really thinks and that's when it came to me, I think like a women now, I always have, what I should have been asking is what does a man think like, it is just so simple, I was looking for something to change in me that was all ready here.
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From listening to others and reading lots of blogs, it seems to me that the hormones DO make some difference in the way you think. I cannot verify or debunk that so it will be interesting to see what you think in a year or so. I know what you mean about already thinking like a woman...I think most of us are that way. Testosterone is powerful though. Keep us informed. :)Suzi
ReplyDeleteI think that's a pretty good rationale dear, I'm glad you are beginning to see this!
ReplyDeleteWe share the same healthy scepticism about saying we could possibly know how women think. It's better I think, to simply allow what is naturally within us to happen on it's own; leave the judgement about what is male or female alone.
I think we sometimes work too hard to eradicate or adopt aspects of self that we consider masculine or feminine when they really aren't directly attributable to either. Society tells us men and women are supposed to act certain ways, but everyone has aspects of both yin and yang in different measure. So who is to say any aspect or way of thinking is purely man or woman?
Suzi alluded to what I feel is the most important aspect of what HRT does in changing how we think. Stopping the T-monster gave me the greatest measure of peace above anything else in transition. I often felt powerless to change the aggressive and angry way I reacted to things before HRT; I loathed myself for it. It really felt like a horrible monkey had been taken off my back, replaced by a sense of calm that allows me to deal with things on a more measured and empathetic level.
Maybe you aren't feeling this to the extent I did; we already know HRT is different for everyone. But could you say that you now feel more freedom to deal with things on a kinder, less aggressive level?
The only specific behaviors or thoughts I think we can work to change are related to male privelege. I know you don't feel this applies to you very much; but it is a subtle thing at times that is hard to see from within. I would characterize it as the assumption that we must take control of every situation and impose our view or method on others simply on the basis that our way must be inherently correct. It's taken me a long time to see this in myself and learn how to change it; and certainly I'm not all the way there yet. But I am enjoying the ability to let this go now.