why have I not been blogging much lately, well there is not much to blog about, dressing is an every day thing now so not a big deal, hormone changes are so slow that there is not much to write about, work has not been a problem, there is one thing but I will write about that later.
Why I have not been going out more, that's simple, no money honey, I am saving up for the big operation and electrolysis so not much left to play with, it's hard, I want to buy so much, I don't have winter clothing and I want to go places and do things but it's just going to have to wait for a year or two.
Why am I having a problem finding a friend to hang out with, is it because I live in BFE, is it because I don't go out much, I do go out more now than ever before. I have never been able to meet people on line, I am not a very good writer, never have been and when you can't write something witty people don't seem to be interested in you.
Why is it I feel like I did in high school, the emotions I have been having in the last flew months are tearing me up, things friends say or don't say, things friends do and don't do, I am really sensitive to every thing and it's not some thing they are doing wrong although it would be nice if they could be a little more sensitive to me until I learn how to handle this.
Why do I cry myself to sleep some nights, for things I can't have, other than that I can't talk about it here. there are somethings you can't blog about.
I thought I had more whys but I guess not, It may seem that I am having problems but I am OK, this has been the best year in a very long time for me and I hope it will get better, I changed the date of my surgery from July to June, so in six months and one week I will be leaving for Thailand.
I am happy with my breasts, I can actually fill out some of my tops now, I never thought I would like them so much, they are wonderful.
See things are Great.
OK I am done for now talk to you later.
Love Susan
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Wow...are you sure the hormones are not working well? This post ran the whole gamut of emotions...extreme lows and then ended up on an extreme high..."See things are great."
ReplyDeleteHave you always been this sensitive to "things friends say or don't say, things friends do and don't do..." I suspect that you are actually becoming more female, emotionally. That's good...right? :) It may take a long time to make that adjustment, where you can deal with those feelings normally, or like a GG would. Just hang in there. Keep trying to make friends. I'm having the same problem but I'm also slowly making headway. It can be done. One of the best ways is to just have a positive outlook and let that attitude shine to the world as much as possible. Hugs, Suzi
Thank you Suzi, I do not think it is the hormones doing it, I have always been sensitive, my ex-wife didn't think so but I have, I think it is because I am letting it come out now.
ReplyDeleteI can't even write a blog like this without tears.
Thanks for the comments on the pictures too, I forgot to tell you the newer ones are with the nose job too.
Susan
There is another thing too, so many people I meet already have somebody, then being older, a lot of people are younger but it is still better than my old life, no way do I want to go back to that.
ReplyDeleteI keep thinking about things, I need to start writing notes. Susan