Oh Crap

I am still upset about being rejected from the rec team so last Wednesday I started something, I listen to Derby Deeds podcast a lot, so I called and left a message because I know one of them that does the show, so anyway he got back to me later on facebook and said he would call her and get her side of the story and that they would like to put it on the podcast so I said sure but that I didn't want to do the interview and he said that he would do it for me if I wanted so I said yes, he messaged me back later and told me he had talked to her and that she may have made a mistake, so now we are waiting to see if she calls me and invites me back, going on 3 days now.

Another person messaged me that same night who is with the Rattleskaters and showed their support, he said that they would not stand for that and would not skate bouts with them, this was something I didn't expect.

I am going to give it to Monday for the call and if not I will let them know she didn't and we will go from there.

Bits and Pieces

I feel like a little kid sometimes, I think way too much, I forget that my friends have friends of their own so I get a little jealous when I see them out having fun with them, you would think at 60 I would be over that.

Last weekend I went to Cottonwood and I stayed at my friends house in Rimrock, we went to a Rockabilly band another first for me, we were fundraising for their team on skates, found out that my big wheels were hitting the toe stops and making me fall but only when skating tight turns, they were OK for skating straight so I fixed them the other day.

Working on things around the house has not been going too good, just keep messing things up and then I have to spend more time trying to fix them.

Wanted to go to the Rockabilly thing this weekend kind of why I bought the dress the other week for last weekend and this but I have never been to this before and after that thing that happened I am still not feeling too confidant about my self, that and I had nobody to go with so I have been home all weekend, just makes me feel like a wasted life like in the old days.

I have been living my life on you-tube lately.

The Plan Update

I am working on changing my life too, trying to speed things up, I have to finish and sell my house first so I can buy a boat but I had all these jobs I wanted to do before It was ready to sell but now I have started to eliminate things that really don't need to be done or finished, I have now been able to set a date to place the house up for sale, I can't do what I read all the time and that's just go and do it before life passes you by, I don't think I could ever be that free.

Derby Love

About 2 weeks ago a friend told me about a new team starting up in Phoenix, AZ over 40, so I called the number and the woman called me and I got signed up on the secret facebook group and then the next day she took me off because she thought I was a man but wanted to talk to me about it.

So the woman at the AZ over 40 league finally got back to me, over a week ago she kicked me off the league for being a man and said she would give me a call which she did today and she told me that because of my competitive advantage, looking like a man and skating like a man that I can't skate with them but would be sure to give me a call if they were going to have a coed bout, don't think she understands or maybe not care about how that has made me feel, sure took the life out of me today.

By how she said some things she knows more than what she was telling, she does not know me but she said that some teams did not want me to play with them and how did she know I look like a man when I skate if she has never seen me.

The best thing about this is was that she was honest, I can't stand hearing about things behind my back.

Not sure if I should give up on this or take it somewhere, I meet all the WFTDA requirements but that is only for WFTDA bouts, lets see how I feel after a good nights sleep.

This is also one of the reasons in my mind why my team failed, new girls look at me and are scared to skate against me, I will never know for sure.