Still not doing too much due to the lack of money right now but this is about some things that happened in the last 2 days.
Sunday i went to Dillard's, i had an appointment at the Mac counter to try some new makeup, even though i always buy something(that's the idea i know) i still can't pass it up because i always learn more about makeup. they sure can make you look good.
After running around the rest of the day and waiting until bed time to take the makeup off i was trying to take it off and it would just not come off, i wiped and washed and rubbed, it would just come off, that's when i realized that it had come off and that was my skin i was looking at.
Last night i went out and met the GLBTS group at Hastings for coffee and to see two friends before they go back home, had mentioned something about going to a bar after-ward's because when i drive to town i like to make it a night, well that's what happened.
I had on one of my favorite short boob showing dresses and my new 5 inch heels, so i was ready. after about half hour we picked a bar, not much for fun bars here in havasu and it was a Monday night, well you all got there and of course it was quite, what we didn't know was that Karaoke started at 9pm along with happy hour, things started picking up with more people and music, we were just talking and all that and i was talking with friends about the normal trans stuff, like being in a place like that and if i looked ok, were people looking at me because i looked good or were they thinking i looked like a guy, you just never know what people are thinking. sometimes your friends do things that if you knew about them before hand you would just run and hide, we had noticed one older guy that had been watching me, well my one friend had gone up to him and said why don't you go ask her to dance (me) he told my friend that i was too cute to dance with him. another time he asked another friend if he would introduce us to these two women that had been looking at me which he did, turned out they were admiring my legs. I had just come off the dance floor and this women came up to me and said how gorgeous i was and could she ask me a personal question, i said sure as always, she said "my friends and i were having an argument about whether or not you were a man" so i told her i was trans and that now i was a women, she was totally surprised, then her friend came over and they seemed to love it, we went out and danced together and while we were out dancing this guy came up, this guy had been watching me all night too, he had been singing Karaoke when I was in the back of the room playing pool with a friend and remarking about me on the mic(all good stuff) he was with a group of 5 guys and 1 girl, anyway he came and butted in on the dance floor and started dancing with me so i went with it, that's when the girl from their group came and pulled him away, not sure what that was about but you know what i was guessing.
It was a really good night, i enjoyed it even though i was read, i can handle it so long as i don't get into trouble.
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tranny
The last time I came back from Phoenix from having electrolysis I had a little incident at the Safeway parking lot here in Havasu. Well when I come home I am usually not looking too good, I have my work hair on and no makeup because it's not good to put it on when your face is all torn up, but other than that I was dressed nice.
I came out of the store with my shopping cart, walked over to my car and this small white pickup truck had parked on the right side of me, there was two young guys in the front and another two in the bed of the truck, well I unloaded my bags into the trunk, then I pushed the cart over to the shopping cart area and that's when I heard something about "Tranny" I don't remember what all they said but it wasn't anything too bad, I got in my car and looked over at one of the guys in the bed of the truck, He gave me the universal single to show him my tits, well I just shuck my head and smiled, he smiled back and I was gone.
For me this is the first time I have been called Tranny out in pubic, it did not bother me at all, in fact I kind of liked it, maybe because they were paying me attention, not sure, I think it's all in the attitude and the way you handle things, I knew I was not looking too good that day but I had to go shopping so I could eat at work the next day or I would have put it off until I could look better.
I came out of the store with my shopping cart, walked over to my car and this small white pickup truck had parked on the right side of me, there was two young guys in the front and another two in the bed of the truck, well I unloaded my bags into the trunk, then I pushed the cart over to the shopping cart area and that's when I heard something about "Tranny" I don't remember what all they said but it wasn't anything too bad, I got in my car and looked over at one of the guys in the bed of the truck, He gave me the universal single to show him my tits, well I just shuck my head and smiled, he smiled back and I was gone.
For me this is the first time I have been called Tranny out in pubic, it did not bother me at all, in fact I kind of liked it, maybe because they were paying me attention, not sure, I think it's all in the attitude and the way you handle things, I knew I was not looking too good that day but I had to go shopping so I could eat at work the next day or I would have put it off until I could look better.
Friday, January 1, 2010
2009
2009 was a very big year for me perhaps my biggest ever, this was the year when I started my transition, I would have started 2 months earlier right after I realized what I am but I had some things I needed to clear up before I could start.
I made my first appointments with my therapist, I was driving about 2 times a month to Phoenix so I could get the letter for hormones and really get started on my physical transition, that was done by the end of February which means I have been on hormones now for 10 months.
I also started early in January working on my new wardrobe, something I will be working on the rest of my life and loving it. I never once went to Phoenix in boy mode.
I think January was when I started going to Starbucks for coffee with the local GLBT group, I will never forget walking in there the first time, it was the first time in full dress, I was shaking so bad and all I did was sit down at a table with BOB, wow how things have changed.
April and May is when I did my coming out,this was done so soon because I was driving around this small town and I knew that I was going to be seen real soon so I thought I would do it under my own terms. I did not really have any friends that I had to come out to(how sad is that) so it was work first which was not as hard as I thought it would be and then I came out to my family in England, coming out for me was one of the best things I have ever done, it lets me be me.
May is when I started my name change and was done on June 9th, I am still finding things that have my old name on them, what a pain.
Electrolysis was started in January also and was worked on all year, I am up to about 130 hours with many more to go.
In September I had my nose job, that nose had given me a hard time for over over 35 years, not only does it look better but more important it's the way it makes me feel about myself that makes the biggest difference, it also helps in the passing I think mostly from not attracting attention to me.
I think it was September when I made my appointment for GRS, it seemed like so long away back then but I moved the date up a month when I was given the chance and now it's 5 months away, I can't wait.
I have made a lot of new friends this year who have made this transition easier for me. I would like to thank Marie and Billie for all their support.
I have found out that I can still love and I still have feeling and boy do I have feeling, I don't remmber the last day when I had dry eyes, it's all good.
I have been living full time now for about 8 months (from when I came out), it feels normal for me to be dressed as a woman and that's because I have always been one inside.
This was also the first year I have ever written a blog, in fact I have written more this year than in my whole life, I did slow down a little on the blogs but that is because what I was doing had become the norm and there was nothing new to write about, all this was new to me.
I have had some problems but nothing bad, I have had a great year, this was the year when I started living again.
I think I covered everything, I am still open about everything and if you ever want to ask questions go ahead, I am always ready to talk about my new life.
Happy New Year. Susan
I made my first appointments with my therapist, I was driving about 2 times a month to Phoenix so I could get the letter for hormones and really get started on my physical transition, that was done by the end of February which means I have been on hormones now for 10 months.
I also started early in January working on my new wardrobe, something I will be working on the rest of my life and loving it. I never once went to Phoenix in boy mode.
I think January was when I started going to Starbucks for coffee with the local GLBT group, I will never forget walking in there the first time, it was the first time in full dress, I was shaking so bad and all I did was sit down at a table with BOB, wow how things have changed.
April and May is when I did my coming out,this was done so soon because I was driving around this small town and I knew that I was going to be seen real soon so I thought I would do it under my own terms. I did not really have any friends that I had to come out to(how sad is that) so it was work first which was not as hard as I thought it would be and then I came out to my family in England, coming out for me was one of the best things I have ever done, it lets me be me.
May is when I started my name change and was done on June 9th, I am still finding things that have my old name on them, what a pain.
Electrolysis was started in January also and was worked on all year, I am up to about 130 hours with many more to go.
In September I had my nose job, that nose had given me a hard time for over over 35 years, not only does it look better but more important it's the way it makes me feel about myself that makes the biggest difference, it also helps in the passing I think mostly from not attracting attention to me.
I think it was September when I made my appointment for GRS, it seemed like so long away back then but I moved the date up a month when I was given the chance and now it's 5 months away, I can't wait.
I have made a lot of new friends this year who have made this transition easier for me. I would like to thank Marie and Billie for all their support.
I have found out that I can still love and I still have feeling and boy do I have feeling, I don't remmber the last day when I had dry eyes, it's all good.
I have been living full time now for about 8 months (from when I came out), it feels normal for me to be dressed as a woman and that's because I have always been one inside.
This was also the first year I have ever written a blog, in fact I have written more this year than in my whole life, I did slow down a little on the blogs but that is because what I was doing had become the norm and there was nothing new to write about, all this was new to me.
I have had some problems but nothing bad, I have had a great year, this was the year when I started living again.
I think I covered everything, I am still open about everything and if you ever want to ask questions go ahead, I am always ready to talk about my new life.
Happy New Year. Susan
Saturday, November 21, 2009
WHY
why have I not been blogging much lately, well there is not much to blog about, dressing is an every day thing now so not a big deal, hormone changes are so slow that there is not much to write about, work has not been a problem, there is one thing but I will write about that later.
Why I have not been going out more, that's simple, no money honey, I am saving up for the big operation and electrolysis so not much left to play with, it's hard, I want to buy so much, I don't have winter clothing and I want to go places and do things but it's just going to have to wait for a year or two.
Why am I having a problem finding a friend to hang out with, is it because I live in BFE, is it because I don't go out much, I do go out more now than ever before. I have never been able to meet people on line, I am not a very good writer, never have been and when you can't write something witty people don't seem to be interested in you.
Why is it I feel like I did in high school, the emotions I have been having in the last flew months are tearing me up, things friends say or don't say, things friends do and don't do, I am really sensitive to every thing and it's not some thing they are doing wrong although it would be nice if they could be a little more sensitive to me until I learn how to handle this.
Why do I cry myself to sleep some nights, for things I can't have, other than that I can't talk about it here. there are somethings you can't blog about.
I thought I had more whys but I guess not, It may seem that I am having problems but I am OK, this has been the best year in a very long time for me and I hope it will get better, I changed the date of my surgery from July to June, so in six months and one week I will be leaving for Thailand.
I am happy with my breasts, I can actually fill out some of my tops now, I never thought I would like them so much, they are wonderful.
See things are Great.
OK I am done for now talk to you later.
Love Susan
Why I have not been going out more, that's simple, no money honey, I am saving up for the big operation and electrolysis so not much left to play with, it's hard, I want to buy so much, I don't have winter clothing and I want to go places and do things but it's just going to have to wait for a year or two.
Why am I having a problem finding a friend to hang out with, is it because I live in BFE, is it because I don't go out much, I do go out more now than ever before. I have never been able to meet people on line, I am not a very good writer, never have been and when you can't write something witty people don't seem to be interested in you.
Why is it I feel like I did in high school, the emotions I have been having in the last flew months are tearing me up, things friends say or don't say, things friends do and don't do, I am really sensitive to every thing and it's not some thing they are doing wrong although it would be nice if they could be a little more sensitive to me until I learn how to handle this.
Why do I cry myself to sleep some nights, for things I can't have, other than that I can't talk about it here. there are somethings you can't blog about.
I thought I had more whys but I guess not, It may seem that I am having problems but I am OK, this has been the best year in a very long time for me and I hope it will get better, I changed the date of my surgery from July to June, so in six months and one week I will be leaving for Thailand.
I am happy with my breasts, I can actually fill out some of my tops now, I never thought I would like them so much, they are wonderful.
See things are Great.
OK I am done for now talk to you later.
Love Susan
Monday, November 9, 2009
How do I look
I have been talking to the ex wife lately mostly about paper work, I had to send her some papers and I sent her some pictures of me because she said she was ready to see what I look like now, so she got the pictures on Saturday and today we had to talk about more paper work and when we were done I asked her how do I look? well she did not say anything bad but she did not say anything good either, my hair is too long, I need to cover my arms, too much blue on my eyes so it makes me wonder, do my friends tell what I want to hear because they don't want to hurt my feelings are they telling me the truth, I know I am talking about the ex wife and why should I listen to her but I listen to every body and then I do what I like anyway but I still like to know what people think about how I look, it is the only way I can get better.
Yesterday I went to the swap meet then to breakfast and I walked around and across the London Bridge, I had no problems, did not even notice anybody looking at me so I must be doing something right and I love it and I feel good, that's what matters.
Yesterday I went to the swap meet then to breakfast and I walked around and across the London Bridge, I had no problems, did not even notice anybody looking at me so I must be doing something right and I love it and I feel good, that's what matters.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Forget the Bra
I was kind of in a rush this morning getting ready to leave the house for work when I noticed some thing felt different under my shirt, the little girls were loose, so I went back in the house and put on my sports bra, I did this once before, one night going to Marie's for taco's I completely forgot the bra but the difference was that I made it all the way there before I noticed I didn't have any boobs so that tells me I am getting used to wearing bras, the only time I don't wear one now is at home and not even that much at home, I think that if they ever get bigger I don't think I will be able to forget the bra.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
What's going on with me
I have not blogged for a while because I have not been doing anything much different, life has been good for me with very flew problems, I am still doing a lot of paper work but even that has gotten routine. I am still dressing 24/7 with no problems, Oh I do have that one thing I can't do any thing about yet and that is the hair, I have not tried it at work again, I do need some hair care products yet so I can make it look better.
I have started going to work in a dress or skirt and then changing into my work uniform at work instead of putting my uniform on at work and have had no problems with that, I did catch one of the guys trying to look up my dress when I was going up stairs.
I am still going to Marie's house on Tuesdays nights, going to Starbucks and the Finish line bar on Thursdays nights when I am not working and anything else I can get into.
I am also getting ready to got to Phoenix next month for my nose job, that's one thing I will be glad when it's done, I am only taking two weeks off after with a nice easy back to work two day schedule and then another 4 days off after.
The biggest news I have is that I have my date for SRS which is July 2010, payed my deposit and everything, that's 10 months and 1 week away, so I will be saving my pennies for that and electrolysis which is going to cut down the fun for awhile but is going to be well worth it.
coming up on the six month mark for hormones, the nipples have stopped itching, have put on about a half inch up top and my butt is getting bigger, body hair seems to be getting lighter, I think my face is changing but it is so hard to tell, it could be just the electrolysis.
That's all I have for now. Susan
I have started going to work in a dress or skirt and then changing into my work uniform at work instead of putting my uniform on at work and have had no problems with that, I did catch one of the guys trying to look up my dress when I was going up stairs.
I am still going to Marie's house on Tuesdays nights, going to Starbucks and the Finish line bar on Thursdays nights when I am not working and anything else I can get into.
I am also getting ready to got to Phoenix next month for my nose job, that's one thing I will be glad when it's done, I am only taking two weeks off after with a nice easy back to work two day schedule and then another 4 days off after.
The biggest news I have is that I have my date for SRS which is July 2010, payed my deposit and everything, that's 10 months and 1 week away, so I will be saving my pennies for that and electrolysis which is going to cut down the fun for awhile but is going to be well worth it.
coming up on the six month mark for hormones, the nipples have stopped itching, have put on about a half inch up top and my butt is getting bigger, body hair seems to be getting lighter, I think my face is changing but it is so hard to tell, it could be just the electrolysis.
That's all I have for now. Susan
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Coming out fallout
It seems I am getting some fallout from coming out at work, It's about time things were going too good, I don't know for sure what it is but I have heard that some of the wife's don't like it because it could make the fire department look bad, I think it's more there husbands, the other thing is that it really bothers some of the guys when I were makeup to work, I have worn some but it was very little, so for right now I will have to back off on that and it does say in the rules no makeup male or female, I do have to watch what I do, don't want to give them an excuse.
I got paper work from two SRS doctors and have been reading that and filling out forms, I get a little excited when I think about it, one day.
other than that I have been just working, working on my boat and shed not a whole lot of excitement but stuff I have to get done. Susan
I got paper work from two SRS doctors and have been reading that and filling out forms, I get a little excited when I think about it, one day.
other than that I have been just working, working on my boat and shed not a whole lot of excitement but stuff I have to get done. Susan
Friday, May 1, 2009
Shopping #2
I forgot the other day when I was in the second hand store, a women came out of the dressing room and asked me if her top looked good, she was trying to buy something other than a tank top, I just asked her if she liked it and just to wear what she likes, I did tell her that it looked nice to me, I was a little surprised that a women would ask me a fashion question like that, maybe something else I have to get used to. Susan
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
24/7
What is 24/7? that's when I have to live and dress as a woman 24 hours a day 7 days a week, it is easy for me on my off days, I can do or go anywhere dressed now, I have got used to it, at work it's a little harder, I still wear my work clothing but my nails are painted, I have a little mascara on and a sports bra, not that I need one it's just in the rules, I didn't think they would notice the little bit of mascara I put on but they did. so that's my 24/7.
Both days at work I was able to talk to people about my self and what I am doing and every thing seem to be OK so far, I have not heard anything bad yet and hope it stays that way.
Today went for another 2 hours of electrolysis then to the dentist to fill out paper work for my first overdue appointment, after that I went to see the girls for a while, that's when I found out I need a flowery dress for Friday, Beltane (Mayday. so I went shopping, I found everything but a flowery dress, Oh well I did buy 5 skirts, 1 shorts and 2 tops, maybe I will have better luck next time
Both days at work I was able to talk to people about my self and what I am doing and every thing seem to be OK so far, I have not heard anything bad yet and hope it stays that way.
Today went for another 2 hours of electrolysis then to the dentist to fill out paper work for my first overdue appointment, after that I went to see the girls for a while, that's when I found out I need a flowery dress for Friday, Beltane (Mayday. so I went shopping, I found everything but a flowery dress, Oh well I did buy 5 skirts, 1 shorts and 2 tops, maybe I will have better luck next time
Sunday, April 26, 2009
shopping dressed
OK I opened blogger because 360 is just not working so to read the link is HTTP://exkinky.blogspot.com. I have been doing blogs in all 3 places so as not to leave anybody out, I will add the links in all the right places when I get to it.
I did go to town to day, gassed up the little truck then to JCPennys, spent about half hour looking at clothing then over to Wallmart for food for work, maybe not a big deal to most people but it's the first time in those stores dressed, wallmart was the hardest because I know more people that work there and that go there and I like every where I have been so far nothing has happened, nobody cares, most do not even notice, I even got called mam today.
All for now, 2 more days of work coming up, see you soon. Susan
I did go to town to day, gassed up the little truck then to JCPennys, spent about half hour looking at clothing then over to Wallmart for food for work, maybe not a big deal to most people but it's the first time in those stores dressed, wallmart was the hardest because I know more people that work there and that go there and I like every where I have been so far nothing has happened, nobody cares, most do not even notice, I even got called mam today.
All for now, 2 more days of work coming up, see you soon. Susan
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