Bad Day February 10, 2009
Why is it that one thing can ruin a perfectly good day, today I went to Phoenix to take the MMPI test, I got off work at 8 am went to the bank, then to my friends house to change cause there was not enough time to go home, drove to Phoenix with one stop at the rest stop and then to my appointment, I went into the office and asked for the key for the rest room, the lady gave me a key, I went out to the lady's rest room and the key did not work, I tried for about a minute before I tried the mens room, it worked there, I didn't want to walk back to the office so I went in, luckily nobody was in there so I went and did my business, while I was in there somebody came in, I had on flip flops and my toe nails are painted so I moved my feet back as far as they would go so as not to be seen, I waited for him to leave and then I got out of there as fast as I could, went back to the office, not too happy mind you but did not say anything, filled out paper work, took the 567 question true and false test, it all took about 1 1/2 hours, went to the front office this time I asked for the restroom key the other one, she said sorry and gave me the lady's key, and that went fine, the bad part is coming.
On the way back home I stop at this ZIP truck stop to fill up, it has the best price and the whole trip cost runs about $55, I got done fueling then went into the lady's rest room just like last time, did not really see anybody watching me but I was sitting down peeing and somebody was checking my stall door, I said occupied and finished, went to wash my hands, she was still out there, one of the store employees, as I was trying to was my hands she was trying to tell me the manager wanted to talk to me, so I went out and he was waiting at the entrance to the rest room, I am not sure what he said exactly but some thing like Sir you can't use the lady's room you have to use the men room so I said I can't use the men room do you have a single rest room, he then pointed to two handicap rest room, I said that was cool and sorry and that was that, I wasn't going to run out of there so I went looking for beer for the taco Tuesday night, I had to ask another employee, she said they didn't have beer there so I left.
The rest of the night was good, I stopped at a mini mart picked up some beer and went to my friends house for taco Tuesday, meet some new people had some good tacos and cake and went home, not a bad day but that 2 minutes is still with me and will set me back for a long time, It wouldn't bother me that much but if I was to be arrested for being in the wrong bath room, that would ruin every thing and I would be really be pissed, what does Harry Benjamin say about us getting arrested for trying to follow his SOC. I know many people have been through the same thing because that's what we have to do but it doesn't make it right, because of who we are I can under stand the discrimination and the humiliation that we are put through from people that don't under stand us but when doctors make us do things knowing perfectly well what's going to happen then some thing is wrong with the system.
I am 55 now, I don't want to wait till I am 60 to have SRS, I would like to enjoy life a little before I get too old, If I am 60 I may not even need a vagina, what am I going to do with it, I may as well just have this thing cut off, just so long as I can pee straight and not run down my leg, It seems that they want to evaluate you for three months, then let you go on hormones, in about 2 years when you start looking better you can start with 24/7 living as a women. A lot of the people I have seen are really good looking as men even before they started hormones I am not one of them.
It's going to be a long hard year and so long as I don't get arrested I will take what ever they dish out, I have just started down a long tunnel, I will let you know when I see light at the end.
The last two days at work were uneventful and today I just rested, put things away and got ready to go back to Phoenix tomorrow for therapy. Later Susan