Entry for February 06, 2009
This blog is about my trip to Phoenix yesterday. It was a long day and filled with a lot of firsts for me, I started at 9:30 am, drove down to Havasu to pick up my friend Marie, this was also a first, the drive to Phoenix was uneventful, one rest stop break, it was really nice to have Marie alone, I think we talked most of the way there about everything, we got to the appointment with the therapist with about 20 minutes to spare good timing.
The session went pretty well I think, Marie came in with me just to listen and meet the therapist. I know I push too hard some times, I can just tell by the look on the therapist face and the concern in her voice.
I will delay my coming out at work until I have to tell them about the hormones that I am taking, I just do not want to be seen dressed running around town but if it does happen I will be ready to come out or if I can talk to the person that sees me I will just ask them not to tell until I am ready.
How I am going to dress at work is not a problem, tee shirt, pants, belt, boots is what both genders wear, once I come out I will add a sports bra under my tee shirt, keep my toe nails painted in a nice color and finger nails can be clear or of a none distracted color as per fire dept appearance rules.
Hair is still my big problem, one thing I maybe able to do is start growing what hair I have, die it to match my wig for when I wear the wig and just wear a ball cap over the bald spot which is what I was kind of going to do when I go running but I was going to wear the ball cap over a wig that I could put into a pony tail, so I think I have had my last hair cut for a while.
After the visit with my therapist Marie and myself found a Mexican restaurant just down the road from the office where we had a nice meal. this was another first for me, going out to eat dressed up with another TG girl and that was really nice.
We left there and found a second hand store that had some really stuff but a little too high priced for us, we left there went about a mile down the road and found another store, thrift smart, we both found some things there, Marie liked hers so much that she changed in to them in the store.
Still had some time to kill so we went to see where the place was at that I have to go to next week to take the MMPI test, we found that with no problem so then we headed back to the therapist office for the Group meeting with about another 20 minutes to spare, we sat for a while until the other girls began to arrive then we went out to meet them.
Another first, this was my first group meeting and the first time with this many TG people, It was nice to meet them all and talk to them, I wish there was more time but I guess over the next 10 years or so I will be able to talk more and really get to know them.
After the Group a lot of the girls when out for a bite to eat and we went along, so there was about 12 of use in the in & out, very interesting is all I can say.
Still had a 4 hour drive home and it was around 10 pm, the ride home was quite except for a couple of time when Marie and I were talking about the SOC, somethings I don't agree on, I understand them but it doesn't mean I have to like it. One thing is the 3 month rules and the 1/24 for 1 year when you have a job like mine, another thing was the hair and hormones. what am I going to do with all these things? I can read everything on the Internet, listing to every thing people have to say but I am still not going to know what I am going to feel until it happens to me. so I got a little hot on the way home, I may have been a little tired too.
1 stop for fuel, pee and a coffee at Zip and back on the way for Havasu, droped off Marie a stop at cicle K for bredd and home at 2:30 am.
It was a good day and I am still tired but worth it. Susan